Monday, May 14, 2007
just pretend
so i was reading one of murakami's books again today, being utterly bored and all, and just like norwegian wood, another song in this book struck a chord with me,"pretend you're happy when you're blue
it isn't very hard to do..."
and it's a really nice song btw, but i kinda like the lyrics, which are somewhat true. how people sometimes hide what they feel and get hurt so that others don't, or put on a smile so their friends won't have to worry about them. pretending is what we do best, little white lies and happy smiles plastered over bleeding hearts so that nobody knows what we really feel inside, our emotional armour against the world. and when an inadvertent few eventually get behind the bastion of these shells of ours, seeing behind the masks we hold up to the world, it's often the case that in providing an opening, you leave yourself open to hurt, and it's a vicious cycle, that so often, you end up pretending and lying to those you care for the most, and it becomes easier and easier, such that you eventually hide your true self from them again
okay forgive the ranting, it's late and i'm bored. but the song is really rather nice.
wen was dreaming at 3:18 AM